hoho. alina!!!
you made my day!

arghh there will be event going on at mg this coming friday ya.
hmm was practicing my song recently at mg.
so pissed la got people choose same song as us. damn fuck lor.
hmm then don't know wanna change song not.
arhhh i felt that i sang very badly and disgusting leh!
sigh.

-ozukari samades-

haha just learnt japanese hoho. so interesting indeed! hmm hurrs feeling wurishides* oh.
wakaka but kimojiwalue* yea soso. laughs, well haven't been going out for days!
hmm? waiting for friday ah. hehhs. *bored
i'm still sick, urghhh, yi neh*
hohox from now on i will live happily, don't wanna waste my time on unnecessary stuff already.
yeah i want to be strong!!
no matter i'm facing what kinda obstacles, i will just continue to be strong!
*promise*
and, ya alina. what you said is quite true.
perhaps i should just try being with the one who loves me and not hesitate any further?
try*

an unrevealing secret*

someone won't ever knows this secret.
and i just wanna kept silent. *shhhs*
sobs cause i'm afraid to reveal the truth, *no determination*
i **** for him but i guess he doesn't know at all.
just simply hiding and hiding. don't wanna let the cat out of the bag*
haiss the one putting effort but ending up not gaining any single thing!
omfg.
should i just give up since he never knows?
*sighhh

hurrs went out to town this evening yeah. supposing to meet my boyboy today ya but we ended up backing out last minute.
*laughs* he wanna meet me but.. i just asked him to meet his friends instead. opps.
wow seriously yesterday i saw a guy who's really very cute and handsome, he looks a bit like jiro omg. and i was just simply stunned. *engrossed* haha! hmm sighs have been looking out for jobs recently.. but still couldn't find any. thinking of working fourskin? should i..? hoho

contradicting*

is there any value to an empty love?
hmm perhaps there is perhaps not? i'm clueless. sigh is it a mistake to fallen for someone whom i shouldn't?
*vexed* well, but i will just be waiting no matter what. hais but the feeling of being loved is good but..
loving someone is a misery and pain to me. i'm really feeling so depressed. unsure of my own feelings..
at times i just simply hates myself to the core, can't help just fucking feel like punching myself.. slapping myself. i need him but the more i WANT him. but it's impossible between us.
argh seriously, maybe i'm just decieving myself, i just wanna pretend to be happy and stuff. but eventually i'm not. simply hiding everything deep beneath me. things are just bottling me up. *devastated*
life is so meaningless. feel like leaving this world.. freaking tired of living sometimes,
i fucking can't face the reality. i'm really very sad. but no one seems to understands me..
i don't feel the love anymore:(

stfu man. caught flu and cough. *pissed
freaking sway la. was okay just now then out of the blue fall sick.
what a day i have sial.
and i just can't stop sneezing! it's really irritating.
*ahhhs just hope to recover soon.
i'm still practicing my song man. have to perform but now my voice is like fuck la can't even sing.
seriously la, i need my vocals back.
hmpt

-WHAT A BORING NIGHT-

just simply singing karaoke gosh. so shit la. seriously. nothing occupies me freaking bored to hell ok. fuck it man. can't get to sleep neither. sigh.

life's seriously lifeless.
*sob*